I remember it clear as day, I am sure all of us PCOS sufferers do too! That confused expression masking your face once the nurse says you have ‘cysts on your ovaries’. What the hell does that mean? – was the first thing that both me and my mother asked her. The nurse was kind enough to tell me that PCOS was nothing to worry about. Huh, how simple and easy was that to tell a 15 year old who didn’t have a clue what problems laid ahead of her.
Yes, I was 15 at the time I was diagnosed, and yet 2 years later I have seen no changes at all to my PCOS. What I have noticed however, is that my body has changed. I’m sure many other women with PCOS would agree that weight gain and hair loss is inevitable! Not to forget those pesky spots that just like to surprise you every morning. I can hardly remember the last time I was slim. I even have a picture of me from when I was 13, hanging on my bedroom door, motivating me to get back into shape. I can let you in on a secret, having a picture of you in your pre-puberty years, is not motivating at all!
There’s not much to say about the day that I was diagnosed except for the fact that my mum was asking the nurse hundreds of questions. The nurse eventually got tired and handed us a leaflet notifying us of the symptoms of PCOS. This was probably the only helpful thing aside from the fact that she assured us that PCOS ‘was nothing to worry about’. Soon my mother and I came to terms with the fact that PCOS may affect my fertility; I was totally fine with that at the time, I was 15! I wasn’t focused on my future let alone future children! I think I was just thrilled with the fact that I didn’t have to suffer a week of hell every month of every year. That was every girl’s (who doesn’t have PCOS) dream isn’t it?
Little did I know that 2 years later, I would be prying for good doctors and searching online for ways to get my periods back. I think this is the only time where I can actually relate to the quote “you never know what you have until it’s gone” without associating it to anything materialistic.
What I have learnt since the day I was diagnosed was that PCOS could be an excuse for my “mood swings”. I have tried to relieve stress and alleviate my negative moods with the archetypal method of using comfort-food. But it was only after I packed on the weight when I realised that ‘comfort-food’ is not actually ‘comforting’ at all. Particularly for those with PCOS, because it is twice as difficult to lose weight with. Doctors have also advised me to ‘lose weight’, claiming that it helps to alleviate PCOS. I have noticed how my BMI has gone from underweight, to okay (when I was diagnosed) to overweight and for two years it’s just been stuck on the ‘overweight’ scale.
I’d love to know what age group PCOS is most common in! Please vote on the poll below when you were diagnosed!